- Metaphorically and literally cannot keep walking “the whole rhythm of it had been broken”
- “I certainly did not intend to tell him more. If he had given the slightest intimation that he knew there was more, if he’d even hinted that he had come here intending to hear it, I don’t think he’d have got anything out of me at all…..” → conditionals, attempting to judge it retrospectively. “Had to” obligation on her to start talking.
- “I meant to”
- “When I spoke of my little sister I said that I was afraid I would hurt her. I believed that would be enough, that he would know enough of what I meant. ‘Strangle her,’ I said then. I could not stop myself after all.”
- > Violence of “strangle”
- > last sentence shows she does not have power over her words. Irony
- “My father had heard it. He had heard that I thought myself capable of, for no reason,
strangling little Catherine in her sleep.” Embedded clause = ambiguous - applicable
to both. (Does she believe she would do it but wouldn’t, or does she believe that,
without a motive, she would do it anyway?)
- Comforting analogy “could not happen, in the way that a meteor could not hit our house (of course it could,but the likelihood of its doing so put it in the category of couldn’t).”
- “There were other things he could have said.” criticism, repetition of modals “could have” and “might have”
- “It set me down, but without either mockery or alarm, in the world we were living in.” - metaphor. Provides grounding / reality.
- “Those strappings, then, would have stayed in his mind, if they stayed at all,
as no more than the necessary and adequate curbing of a mouthy child’s imagining that she should rule the roost.” → World was hard, conditional clause . her father helped her, but could be hard too.
- “However, on that breaking morning he gave me just what I needed to hear and what I was even to forget about soon enough.”
- > metaphors “breaking morning” - dawn, new day and hope
- > metaphor “gave” - gift. She is grateful.
- After the penultimate paragraph describes the darkness in her father’s life, the short sentence “Never mind” totally dismisses all of this suffering in the same way he dismisses her “darkness”. Similar to him.
- ‘From then I could sleep” sleep, mental peace etc. symbolism. End of unrest.