- (mother telling her Rose's job offered to her) had a smile of satisfaction on her face and this came as a relief to Eilis, who had begun to dread the silences between them and resent her mother's lack of interest in discussing anything, any single detail, about her time in America... felt, for the first time, less uneasy about being home
- She wished she could go downstairs now and tell her mother what she had done, but she knew she would not. As she lay in bed she thought it would be wise to make the best of it, take no big decisions in what would be an interlude. A chance to be at home like this would be unlikely to come her way again ever.
- Quietly, he spoke: "Will we go and try the water?"
Eilis was waiting for this and had already planned to say no.
- But his tone, when he spoke, was unexpected in its humility. Jim spoke like someone who could be easily hurt
She realized that, if she refused, he might walk alone down to the water like someone defeated; somehow she did not want to have to witness that.
- her mother had selected a blue dress with a floral pattern, one that was Tony's favourite, and a pair of blue shoes. Eilis was almost going to tell her that she could not wear this, but she realized that any explanation she invented would cause unnecessary tension so she went ahead and put it on.
- "I will be going back to the United States," Eilis said.
"Well, yes, of course," Mr. Brown said. "But you and I will speak again before you make any firm decisions."
Eilis was about to say that she had already made a firm decision, but since Mr. Brown's tone suggested that he did not need just now to have any further discussion on the matter, she realized that she was not expected to reply. Instead, she stood up, and Mr. Brown did too, accompanying her to the door and sending his regards to her mother before he saw her out to the care of Maria Gethings, who had an envelope for her ready with cash inside.
- The expression on Mrs. Byrne's face was one of sweet insinuation; Eilis wondered if she might make an excuse and simply run towards the ladies' so that she would not have to listen to her any more. But then, she thought, she would be leaving Jim on his own with her.
- She asked herself what she would do if Jim proposed marriage to her. The idea, most of the time, was absurd; they did not know one another well enough and so it was unlikely. Also, she thought that she should do everything possible not to encourage him to ask, since she would not be able to say anything in reply except refuse him.
- He pulled her closer to him and put his hands on her breasts. She could hear him breathing heavily.
"I mean if you have to go back, then maybe we could get engaged before you go."
"Maybe we can talk about it soon," she said.
She turned around towards him and they began to kiss
- She looked at his kind face in the soft light of the hotel restaurant and decided that she would tell him nothing now.
, she realized that there would never be a time to tell him. It could not be said; his response to her deception could not be imagined. She would have to go back.
- the prospect of saying goodbye to Jim Farrell still filled her with fear, enough for her once more to put both ideas out of her mind. She would think about them soon, she thought, but not now.
- But if he found it that night, he would instantly seek her out. Instead, she decided, she would drop the note in the door the following morning on her way to the railway station. She would simply say that she had to go back and she was sorry and she would write when she arrived in Brooklyn and would explain her reasons.